It is Sexual Abuse

It comes to mind that I am trying to avoid using the term sexual abuse.  My abuse was explained away in a  hundred different ways, anything but sexual abuse.  While I knew my father was sexually inappropriate to me, I could not say I was sexually abused.  Until I was triggered by an abduction in my neighborhood.  I then relived the worst moment.  The moment of undeniable sexual abuse.  I no longer could pretend it was something simpler then sexual abuse.  But even still I seem to have a brain block from using the term here I have written many blog posts and this is the fist one to even use the term sexual abuse in it.